It is almost 6 months mama left us.

I long for her hug, hold, laughers.

I imagine that she is reading the papers at her usual place.

I thank God that I will see mama soon.

I want papa to have the hope also.

I cannot imagine if mama is not saved or if i have no hope to see her again.

Lord, please give me grace.

My prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

Forgive my sin,

Hear my prayer

Help me know and live thy will

Make me clean, a vessel for use

Protect my family

Save them all

Lift me up to stand

Give me wisdom to understand your plan

Remove the grief that i may live

Hope fills me to see my mama again

In Jesus name amen

Dad to get saved

Father is acting very strangely tonight. He paced up and down, restlessly.

I pray the the Holy Spirit to work in his heart. Pray that he will seek God. Pray that he will be convict of his sin and know he needs Jesus Christ to forgive his sin. Dear Lord, please be merciful to him, give him more time to get saved. Lord, please help him.

I woke up last night at 2:30 and can't get back to sleep.
I felt I did not do well during the presentation with I.M.H's COO. I felt I did not manage to defend myself. I want to give up. I miss mama.

I sent my resume to Mok on Tuesday. Not sure if I will be called for interview. Should I continue in this line? I want to take a break !

The Next Feast

We had our 1st CNY without mommy.

Last year this time mom was having her chemo, but she was still up to fix our reunion dinner. That was my last reunion dinner with mom on earth. The next meal with mom will be feasting at the wedding banquet with our Lord Jesus Christ.

I started Faith Bible Institute. I want to know God more and understand His way.

I prayed that God will be merciful to papa and give him many opportunities to receive Jesus Christ to be his Saviour and Lord.

When I finish my course and I hope God will say "Well done!". Lord, please give me strength and grace to carry on. Help me to live this life to glorify you.

I miss mama very much but I shall not let it hinder me from doing my best. One day, I will be reunited with her. With God's help, I will bring as many as I can to be reunited with her. We will reign with Christ and live for ever and ever without suffering and pain.

burden

i look around the house

so much to do

so heavy is the burden

when will i be free from these?

how did mama do up everything single handedly?

My dear Lord, please help me!