4th Anniversary

It has been 4 years.

Brought Mama 2 bunches of pink carnations. She loves caranations. She loves the flower for its beauty and the hardiness.

Cried again at her grave beacuse I miss her so much.

Broken Hearted

My heart is aching tonight. The 2 persons I love is acting strangely on me. Is it that I have hurt them?

Lord, pls can you mend broken hearts.

Letter to Mama

Dear Mama,

I miss you very much. Just like when I was little, I always look forward for your coming to pick me up from grands' place. Sometime this feeling is so overwhelming that I began to cry. Mama, I still don not understand why did God wants to bring you Home so soon.

I am already half way thru' my dip in ECE. I know you will agree that I change line. You are always so supportive in whatever I do. Thank you for trusting in me.

The CNY holidays had just ended. Though I tried to replicate the things you do, my efforts are in vain. The festive mood has since left with you. Mama, don't worry, Iwill do my best as promised.

your darling girl

3rd Anniversary

Today is the 3rd Anniversary of Mama being called Home.

Life at home is getting in place but it will never be the same again. There will be always this empty slot just like a jigsaw with a puzzle piece missing. No longer a completed picture.

I hate it!

I am feeling real lousy today.

I had a quarrel with Papa on some very trival matter.

But what I am angry was he said mama was right that he will be lost with no help if she die. I think what mama was trying to say is, he was too dependent of her and NOT that we (the children) will not take care of him when she is no longer around.

Papa is also in self-pity state. And I hate that!

1st Day of School

Today is my 1st day of school after 9 years.

Sometimes I feel stupid for giving up what i have to start from zero again. I feel pressurised to do well in ECE.

My Passion

I haven't been here for sometime. Thank goodness I still remember my password.

Finally, I pluck up my courage to resign from my pm job. My last my at Pxx will be on 14 May 2009. I have not decided what to do after that. Perhaps, do a dipolma for early childhood, join MOE, or open a provision shop.

Well meaning questions like "What do you enjoy doing?" , "What is your passion?" are a little annoying.

Looking back ...

When I was little, I like to sing. Mama said I sang like a little bird perching on the branch. I don't think I can qualify for a pop singer. Got no look neither X factor.

Then when I am in primary school was love to cook and a bake. However, no one appreciated my cooking except mama my only fan.

Oh yes, I love to design costumes and garments for my paper dolls. And for a long while, a kept a scrape book for magazine cuttings on clothings. I told mama that I want to be a fashion designer. But I look more like a ah soh now!

These were my passions but what should I do for a living.