burden

i look around the house

so much to do

so heavy is the burden

when will i be free from these?

how did mama do up everything single handedly?

My dear Lord, please help me!

Nothing much

Had lunch with SH project team this afternoon at Lao Bei Jing Novena. Paid by the Zha Bo Architect. So So only. Nothing great. Anyway it is free.

Lost my voice. It is not the 1st time. I have had this twice a year for the past few years.

Sorry that today's post is so ah soh.

Dream

I dreamt of mama last night.

She came to me by surprise.

She looked younger, fairer, with thicker shoulder length hair. But the familiar look in her eyes did not change. In fact she looked good. She said,"Hey".

I cried and woke up.

Evidences that Mama is saved

I want to write this down before I forget.

These are the evidences that Mama is saved :-
1. Dr Poon prayed the sinner prayer with Mama.
2. Mama signed below the sinner prayer in the book "personal peace" which Dr Poon gave her.
3. Mama told Pa that she wants to be a christian.
4. Mama took out the buddhist beads she was wearing.
5. Mama told big aunt that she has become a Christian and returned the beads.
6. Mama was annoyed when she knew aunts and uncles were talking about her conversion.
7. Mama asked me how to pray to God.
8. Mama asked if she needed to tell God her name when she prays.
9. Mama told Pa that he too must hear the preaching of Pastor.
10. I pray with Mama many times.
11. When Mama was very ill, she responded when I told her that I will get our family to accept Jesus.
12. Many prayed for mama.

I must rejoice that mama is now with God. No pain, no suffering, peaceful and save.

Separated

My dear friend, YSL's father passed away last night after midnight. He was diagnosed with lung cancer 2 weeks after mama was called home.

YSL must be very sad. I know how it feels to be separated from your loved one. Let alone that she does not have the hope to see her dad again. This is the consequences of sin. Because of sin, man shall die, separated from your loved one and from God.

Robbed

Visited Mama grave this afternoon. The despair monster striked me again. Messaged GP that I have not accepted that God should take mama away. She replied,"Aunt had finished her course but you haven't. e reason is obvious. finish your race. God will surely take you home. But I believe we may not have to die before going to heaven. He's coming! The wedding of weddings will begin very soon. Oh be glad!"

Read the Pilgrim's Progress about the character Little-faith who was robbed by Faint-heart, Mistrust, Guilt. Little-faith should be happy that they did not get his jewels; the certificate that he needed in order to gain admission at the Celestial Gate by the grace of Great-grace. But instead, fresh thoughts of his loss would surge into his mind whenever he began to be comforted.

Poor Little-faith! Hast been among the thieves?

Wast robbed? Remember this, whoso believes,

And get more faith, then shall you victors be

Over ten thousand, else scare over three.

from Pilgrim Progress by John Buyan

How true this is to me.

Thoughs for the New Year

We came back from Sunway Lagoon, Malaysia.

Thank God for the good weather, the safe journey and the wonderful family time, with a hint of regret that mama is not with us. Visited KLCC again, was there 4 years ago, mama was with us then. But I am also glad that mama is in a much better place. Could I wish that she is still here? (Mama, I miss you.)

My new year resolutions:-
1. Be a blessing to those around me;
2. Humble myself;
3. Shine for Jesus Christ.

My new year desires:-
1. Family members getting saved;
2. To know God's will in my careers;
3. Pay up my housing loan.
4. Christ to come soon.

I read in the malaysia papers that Saddam Hussein was hanged on 31 Dec. He was not remorse even to the very end. This man's heart was heartened to no turning back.

Dear God please be merciful and patient with us.