Molly the Wonderwomen

I only knew Molly the founder of "WeareWonderwomen.com" from her blog writtings and our brief blog correspondances. It has been a habit for me to check her blog every few days for updates on her treatment. I look forward to good news. Actually I was looking forward to news on the chemo drugs she was on are effective in controlling the cancer.

Today, Molly was called Home to be with the Lord. Now she needs no more chemo drugs. Is this a good news? Can we celebrate?

Yes, we should rejoice that Molly is free from all pain. But being human, we only see our temporary lost. I do not understand why God took Molly Home when she is such an inspiration, encouragement and good testimony. Same as I do not understand why God took mama Home when is it time for her to enjoy her fruit of labour. Nevertheless, I trust God's greater plan.


I believe Molly had fought with that deadly disease, cancer, till the end, never giving up. I also believe she did not fought with the almighty God too. She did her best and left the rest to God.

A Wonderwomen I will miss, till the Lord comes.

Not just physical pain

My church presented shadow puppet show on the crucifixion and resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ on Sunday.

I always feel crucifixion was such a cruel death. The physical pain must be excruciating.

But I understood something more. When the Lord Jesus said "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”, it must be more painful than any thing else. God the Father has left Him. A child separated from his father. On top of the phyiscal pain, there were feeling of lost, desperation, loneliness, and emptiness.

Rejoice, the story did not end there. The Lord Jesus rose on the 3rd day!

Death has no power over Him, and thus it has no power over those who put their trust on Him.

My Condolences

Lydia Sum, better known as Fei Fei succumbed to liver cancer this morning. She left behind a young daughter. I only know her for her iconic black-rimmed spectacles, hair style, bubbly personality and as a celebrity. But today my heart goes to her loved one and especially to her only daughter - Joyce Cheng.


I can understand the grief and pain her daughter is going through now. No amount of words can give any comfort. No amount of preparations can give readiness.


I send my most heartfelt condolences to you, Ms Cheng. Take a day at a time.

Something's missing

A belated Lovely Valentine's Day to all my dears.

A Prosperous Lunar New Year too. May health and wealth be in abundance.

Last but not least, A Blessed Birthday to me! But where are the 2 hard-boiled eggs I used to get on my birthday?

Lost Skills

Tonight is the eve of the eve of Chinese New Year (there is no typo error here :o)).

I used to accompany mama to the wet market to make the last minute shopping for fresh vegetables, meat, fishes, fruits this night. I love the array of colours of the vegetable stalls, do not mind the smell of the fish stalls and enjoy the hawkers and their patrons exchange of bargains. I was (and still am) amazed by how fast the hawkers could calculate the items cost and how mama counter offered.

I think I will never acquire this skill of quick mental calculation let alone bargaining. NTUC is where a get my groceries. I have no idea of total cost of items in the shopping basket (if there are more than 3 items) until I make payment at the cashier. Sad right?

Mama's Wedding Ring

I am so happy, I found mama's wedding ring in the side cupboard beside papa's bed. I have been looking high and low for it for a few months now. I combed throught the places mama keeps ( it is difficult to use past tense on mama) her things. I practically left no stone unturned.

Mama took off the ring when she was going through radiotherapy. She must have wanted to keep it in a safe place. So safe that it took me a while to find it.

This ring was on mama's finger as long as I can remember. I remembered feeling it when holding mama's hand when I was little and also asking her what does the engraved initiate "L.Y.S." on the inside of the ring means.

If only my finger fit the ring, I would have it on as long as I can, just like mama.

The Journey

Looking back, the journey we've gone through with mama during her illness was a bitter-sweet experience. I treasure every little memory I have, not wanting to loose any. That is one of the reasons why I started this blog.

The 18months battle that we fought together was so packed with emotions. Fear, anger, joy, peace, anxiety, heartache, thankfulness sometimes all rolled in one single day.

I found this site call CancerLynx and there was a particular article by Law Lee, he speaks about the needs of the cancer patients and their caregiver at different stage of the illness. I find his account very close to that which I have gone through with mama.

Filling Up the Spaces

First, let me wish you a blessed 2008 ahead!

My brother and I embarked to give the house a fresh coat of paint. We realised that the finishings in the house are getting old, dirty and worn out. Mind you, we are staying in a relatively new flat, not more than 8 years. But it has deteriorated since mama was ill. I had posted before that the HOUSEkeeping at times seems so overwhelming. Thank God that brother sugguested, "Let's paint the house." As ever, I asked the same question, "Sure or not?"

I choose the colours and he brought the paint. I am a not a risk taker, so the colour are safe colours, off-white and lime green. Brother did most of the painting work. Me? I did the touching up and supervising. Oh no no, don't you despise my effort ;o)

When I was painting (or supervising) this thought came to me. Will we take up this responsibility if mama is still around? It was mama's "job", of course, not that we will leave all the works to mama but she will be the initiator, co-ordinator, supervisor and worker too.

Little by little, we are filling up the empty spaces left behind.